Who are we that inhabit this Earth, or the better question, who are you? I find that what comes out of my mouth is so bent on pleasing others that I don’t always recognize my own false hoods. I mean to say one thing, and yet I find my mouth saying something else altogether. Wait, stop! I occasionally hear my mind nudging at me, and yet it would appear my mouth has a life of its own. Who am I? I do this time and time again, not being honest with myself, and then in turn not being honest with others around me. Is this a condition of falsehood, or some programmed ideology from childhood? Honestly, I don’t think it matters where this condition came from, the fact is it exists and I am becoming more aware of it and the need to change it.
Change can be difficult. With change comes fear, fear of acceptance by others, of being rejected and abandoned. However, I can feel in the core of my heart that because of this ease of saying the ‘right thing’ I created a lot of pain for myself. I gave up my voice by not being honest, and allowed a mate of some 20 years to neglect the simple fact of taking care of our child and myself with an updated will and good financial planning documents in place among other things. At my core, I knew these things were not taken care of for us, and yet in the effort to keep things in harmony I allowed things to pass by being inauthentic.
Make no mistake, I could become angry, distraught, and sad over many things and still can feel these emotions and exhibit them to some degree, but to use an honest voice when asked, “how are you” is often a challenge for me, it’s a fine line between saying more than one wants to know and being honest. I am almost certain it is for most of us, because in answering without authenticity, most of us also ask these questions from an unauthentic place as well. It is so important to be open, direct and honest. I am not talking brutal and mean, but speaking from your heart for what works for you in that moment. The beauty of it all is that the individual you are addressing, should they be evolved or on the path, will recognize this is where you are coming from and be able to answer you with an open heart as well. It is really that simple. Speak the truth, I always tell my child, and yet I so often do not practice these simple words. Choose your words wisely, listen with your heart and be honest in all you set out to do on this Earth and in return love and compassion will be released into the universe and come directly back into your own heart.