Unless you’re very lucky or very enlightened, you’re likely to hear those nattering voices and feel those nagging fears within you. They’re part of the deal. I won’t try to talk you out of them, and you shouldn’t try to talk yourself out of them, either. Just notice the voices and feel the fears. That’s all you need to do with them. You don’t need to rid yourself of them. Where would they go, anyway? All you need to do is acknowledge them, wave to them, let them know you’re aware of them. Then get busy learning to live in your Zone of Genius.”
~ Gay Hendricks
Wave to your nagging fears, wave goodbye to them just like I said goodbye to my only child yesterday at the airport en route to his new life for the next four months down under far, far away from me. This certainly brought up all kinds of fears for me, like will his flight make it or fall from the sky, will he find his way through three different airports and countries as he makes his way to his final destination, what if, what if?! Tossing and turning I lay in my bed with sleep at bay until the wee hours of the morning, when finally it came. However, I awoke in a flash at my normal hour, only to decide I should go back to sleep again as I had not slept for very long. Upon awakening some time later, my left arm and hand were aching serving as a stark reminder of the brain surgery and deficit from so long ago. This is not good I think to myself, I have gotten myself into a terrible state of worry. I cannot control the world, his flight, or him for that matter since he is officially an adult of 21 years of age. He wanted this experience, to study abroad, and I was able to make it come true for him. Why was I filling my heart and soul with such unnecessary worry?
For the record, each time one of these thoughts came into my mind I carefully envisioned a positive one instead, but I think it is appropriate to acknowledge our fears, and then move on. I love the idea of waving goodbye to them, see them, acknowledge them and say goodbye. This is an ideal way of not allowing fear to take over your life and shut you down from the goodness that is everywhere if we simply open our eyes. If we project fear, we are certainly not creating peace in our own lives or that of the world. Peace is the goal for my life as well as that of the world, and yet I fall prey to things that are out of my control time and time again. That is why it is all a practice, to come to our yoga mat, our meditation, our prayer, and our practice of a spiritual being shining our bright light out into the world.
I will feel much more at ease when I see that his last flight has landed at its final destination. Telling myself I will not worry as he goes through customs alone and catches a taxi alone to get to his final destination for the day, where he is to meet up with others who are also studying abroad for the semester. It will all be fine because he has traveled internationally prior to this trip, he is 21 years old and he is a spiritual being and goes about his endeavors in a mostly peaceful state. He even text me last night on his second flight, the longest one, a picture of him holding the moonstone I gave him for travel. I love that about him, that he gets it and honors my beliefs and me as well. Giving my thanks to technology today as well, and to all the people who make it available for me to write on my computer, to publish it on a blog, to being able to check something called Flight Aware to see his flight as he crossed the vast ocean last night. What an amazing world we live in! I cried with joyous relief when I saw his big flight hand landed, and I am grateful to this beautiful earth and all who made it possible for him to arrive there, albeit tired I am certain, but also joyful for the experience he is about to undertake. Life is a blessing when we can let go of our fears. It is particularly important to acknowledge them, but that is all one needs to do, and then wave goodbye for fear will never set you free only love and light. Thank you beautiful Mother Earth for allowing my son and me to experience your love and light.