Forgiveness

Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world, some powerful words that flew directly into my heart from what I was reading in print.  Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world.  How do you forgive someone who is no longer living for his or her transgressions?  This is something I have struggled with since 2004; I know a very long time!  The last words my spouse ever uttered to me were “I am sorry.”   I have gone around and around in my mind as to what he might have been sorry for, causing an inconvenience on the day he died, knowing that he was about to die and leave a huge mess for our minor child and myself, or sorry for the lies he told me, or sorry for not placing his trust in me.  I will never know what he was sorry for, never.  This is a difficult pill to swallow, for there were many things I found in the wake of his death that he could have been expressing apologies for and asking for reconciliation.  I am still working on the reconciliation piece.  What I have come to accept is that while the tools of apology and reconciliation are wonderful, what is most important is the means of seeing the absolute perfect innocence of every person, myself included, no matter what has transpired. 
Forgiveness is a spiritual action given through each person’s own free will.  When we can learn to see the innocence of the divine that exists in everyone, and shine our divine light, we can begin to heal.  We are the light of the world.  I am no longer just one person, but I am the light of the world and when I forgive I begin to live.

What we don’t recognize is that holding onto resentment is like holding your breath.  You’ll soon start to suffocate. ~ Deepak Chopra

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Welcome to my site. I am writing to give people inspiration to hold their voices, especially as concerns the grieving process. My hope is that everyone finds a little inspiration from my site. We are all a work in progress! Namaste.
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6 Responses to Forgiveness

  1. That’s a wonderful story and sentiment. One can only speculate now on what “I’m sorry” meant, so for my two cents worth, I’ll look on the bright side and hope that he meant what many of us mean at very times, meaning “I’m sorry I’m so less than perfect for you.”

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  2. Khushbo says:

    I am sorry for your loss. My mother said the same thing before she passed away. She had been sick for a long time, so before she was ushered to the ICU she stopped to hold our hands and she said, “I’m sorry”, I was baffled, I asked her what she meant. She just said, “I am sorry I could not help you further in life, I am sorry I won’t be there for you.” I think it is very hard for us to understand what it is like for people who are passing away. The pain they leave behind in us is just as hard to bear. Obviously I do not feel there was anything to forgive but all the same, she said it, she wanted to be a part of our lives longer, maybe in some way she wanted to forgive herself for moving on too.

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  3. Cheryl says:

    I thoroughly enjoy your blog. It’s so touching that I immediately thought of you for the Illuminating Blogger award. You can find out more info here: http://cherylbrandreth.com/2013/03/06/illuminating-blogger-award/

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