Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world, some powerful words that flew directly into my heart from what I was reading in print. Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world. How do you forgive someone who is no longer living for his or her transgressions? This is something I have struggled with since 2004; I know a very long time! The last words my spouse ever uttered to me were “I am sorry.” I have gone around and around in my mind as to what he might have been sorry for, causing an inconvenience on the day he died, knowing that he was about to die and leave a huge mess for our minor child and myself, or sorry for the lies he told me, or sorry for not placing his trust in me. I will never know what he was sorry for, never. This is a difficult pill to swallow, for there were many things I found in the wake of his death that he could have been expressing apologies for and asking for reconciliation. I am still working on the reconciliation piece. What I have come to accept is that while the tools of apology and reconciliation are wonderful, what is most important is the means of seeing the absolute perfect innocence of every person, myself included, no matter what has transpired. Forgiveness is a spiritual action given through each person’s own free will. When we can learn to see the innocence of the divine that exists in everyone, and shine our divine light, we can begin to heal. We are the light of the world. I am no longer just one person, but I am the light of the world and when I forgive I begin to live.
What we don’t recognize is that holding onto resentment is like holding your breath. You’ll soon start to suffocate. ~ Deepak Chopra